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not done with this yet.. i'll say when i'm done.. but i'm ALMOST done.. some ppo are still missing..

mostly done with these.. currently written, cept i need to add a lil more to a few people's. prolly just yurika's and jo's

- you guys.. dem peeps, man i feel right at home round you guys, maybe we don't really have much to say but just make fun of each other and stuff, but really i feel like i can be open, myself, and have no fear of being myself, i can be the most stupidest person ever, and still feel happy around you guys, seriously.. thanx

- uhh..haha, i'm glad i've met y0u guys, you guys showed me a different side of myself, that is still myself, -- weird.. that i never really knew existed.. i could be less carin about myself, and how other's perceive me. gosh, almsot like dem peeps where i could completely be myself, and no one'd give a crap. no conformity at all.. fit just right in, no matter how retarded you peepo are xP

- haha, more revealin of facets of life, previously uh.. hidden..-.- but yea, thanx muches guys. freakin awesome a lot of times, and i kant tell you guys how much i owe u guys...panda&lings and delta..

- dood, i'm sayin it straight up.. im prolly the only one out of the people who will see this info who knos who u are anyway. Isik Palion, you are one damn awesome person. you really make me think and philosophize sometimes man.. and seriously, i love doin that.. and the creation of a story.. that's awesome.. you make me reminise about my old younger self.. the one who had the time to "think".. instead of using all his "thinking" on required school stuff.. i almost forgot how fun thinkin, and inventing things were.. and trying to figure out how things will work and stuff like that.

- many thx by being the stupid people who don't give a crap about what other's think.. and showing me that it doesn't really matter.. and the truth that there'd be no point in allowing other's to see a good side of you, if it isn't your true side. true friends are yours if they like you for what you are, not for what you seem to be..besides, some of you guys are so abnormal yet carefree, you guys are still happy.. and it makes me happy ..d-ninjaZ + hubby

- somehow i feel like your always there for me, im seriously grateful to've met you, and glad that your so understanding, and i'd like to always be there for you too, i seriously wished i'd met you earlier, (altho i did meet you in 8th grade, and sit next to you for an entire year, which you didnt say 1 word to me ) you REALLY are seriously like my unbiological twin.. iunno, your the only one to ever truly understand me, and understand every single thing that i say.. people could say that its because we're close, or we've been through much, or we're good good friends, but its been like this since we've first became friends really.. and after that there isn't much we haven't been through together.. think about all the good times.. reminisce.. because besides hope, you have your memories, and dwell in them, as a momentary refuge of your current pain and loss.. i don't know what to say, how to help or comfort you because im oblivious, and that's certainly fine with me, because you know whats best for yourself, for me, if its best that you don't tell me, or its better for you, i'm happy with what you believe in, despite her good intentions, don't listen to ai dan gao about how much i want to know... she makes it sound like i'm really pushing to know.. but that's her talkin, i want you to kno that you do whatever you think is right, and i'll support that choice, even if it means i'm left out.. i'd be sad for you, cry for you and suffer for you if i could, but we aren't given the ability, so now i can only wish and hope, for the better, for you. nothin bad ever really remains or stays afresh, feelings don't die out, but they get covered, hidden, and stuffed under heaps of other feelings, so much as to seem forgotten, or finished.. but given enough, it can be renewed afresh as much as it ever has, but that only happens when you let it happen, so all i can say right now, is to cover it up, think optimistically.. wait no.. don't think optimistically, think indifferently.. elsewhere, don't pay so much attention to whatever's botherin you, at where we're at right now, nothin that atrocious would occur really that would affect the rest of our lives at the same level of emotions that occur at the concurrently...just... hope..<--dun forget wut it means... ever...think of the good times [and stop thinkin of the same things at the same time i do.! i swear i had this done b4 you had your "encrypted msg" about hope..haha ].. remember how i asked you the question about the perfect lover vs. lotta close friends.. one of the things about the question that makes it so unanswerable is the "perfect", things like that are hard to find... close friends are in fact easier to come by, so of course the question is hard.. but in real life.. the fact remains that close friends are easier to come by... listen.. you ARE strong.. okay... ppo have their limits, and i don't think neone else have as high as yours, but seriously no one is unlimited in their "strength" so sometimes you cant be so independent and try to hold everything in..it could be wut im sayin dusnt apply at all.. but it dusnt really matter.. my main point is that....... salvation lies in your friends. that choice is up to you.

- thanks a lot, i know, maybe you still feel bad.. but its okay.. really, even then, i really knew that it wasnt meant.. but i still held it out, u had a huge impact in my life, as a result, i became a lot more mature after, i'm really glad i met you, u really made 10th grade worthwhile, and showing me, aspects of life that i didn't even know existed.

- your cool, awesome sometimes, and even more so, you show almost the most strongest sense of self-will i've ever seen in a person.. seriously, you show strong independency and an awesome trait of confidence, which really helps when i need the courage to do sumthin. thanx for hearing me out durin those tough times.. and really, i miss those walks.. maybe after the schoolwork craze is over, we cood do it again sumtime.. your also the only one really to ever reciprocate trust.. but then again, you aren't very good at keepin your own secrets anyway .. thanks a lot tho =)

- you.. have to stop hibernating... anyway -.- your like the opposite of ^... practically the epitome of pessimists.. gosh.. but then again you say hubby complains more.. anyway, thanks for hearin me out likewise wen i needed, even tho you didn't have much to say, thanks for trying =) and listening really.. that's wut really was important and what REALLy counted

- you, are the most immoral, fcked up weird biznatch i've ever known, dunno how/why i still put up with u'z, maybe i'll get over it eventually, and we cood be as chill as b4, i'm trying.. if you could please refrain from that b*tchy scowl that is directed to practically everyone when its yourself who has the problem....